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Rajrajrajraj
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Hallo guys!~ I missed you! 
I haven't been submitting stuff for a loooooong time now. I don't really know why, but I have some theories... and in my lack of anything else to write about I will torment my dear followers and visitor by spilling my sorrows.
Why I haven't been submitting stuff:
٭ I've recently gotten a life.
٭ I'm afraid of what people will think of my art.
٭ I'm an extreme perfectionist so I'm never satisfied with my art and just kind of leave it...
٭ One of my "friends" started watching whatever I do and write here and that was uncomfortable since we're not on such good terms.
٭ I am afraid of trolls.
٭ I got mad 'cause I never seemed to get the colors right when I started trying to color my paintings.
٭I killed my tablet out of frustration.
...and that's that. Happeh? I dunno if I'm going to start submitting stuff again...I just kind of want to concentrate on mah life!!!
IMA PLAY MAH VIOLIN AND PLAY PIANO AND SING LIKE HELL! YOU JUST WAIT!!!!!!!!!
Ahh...aggressions.
ANYWHO! I may just put something up from time to time ya know. 'cause you never know right? Yeah so...I'll not feel any pressure, nuh-uh! ARGHARG! I'll just submit when I submit and when I'm gone I'l be gone...I'll come back sometime because Deviantart will always be the first bookmark in my bookmark bar.
SEE YOU SUCKERS! I'll be back! Cuz I wuw you! Yes I doo, mommy wuws you! And...I should go too sleep. Farewell!~
~
Some old wise words...
I want to be daring, I want to be colorful, I want to be able to say exactly what's on my mind without worrying about what others will think, I want to be able to brush off hurtful words with a laugh or with a witty comment, I want to simply not care about what others say...but it's not as simple as that it seems.
...and that's that. Happeh? I dunno if I'm going to start submitting stuff again...I just kind of want to concentrate on mah life!!!
IMA PLAY MAH VIOLIN AND PLAY PIANO AND SING LIKE HELL! YOU JUST WAIT!!!!!!!!!
Ahh...aggressions.
ANYWHO! I may just put something up from time to time ya know. 'cause you never know right? Yeah so...I'll not feel any pressure, nuh-uh! ARGHARG! I'll just submit when I submit and when I'm gone I'l be gone...I'll come back sometime because Deviantart will always be the first bookmark in my bookmark bar.
SEE YOU SUCKERS! I'll be back! Cuz I wuw you! Yes I doo, mommy wuws you! And...I should go too sleep. Farewell!~
~Some old wise words...
I want to be daring, I want to be colorful, I want to be able to say exactly what's on my mind without worrying about what others will think, I want to be able to brush off hurtful words with a laugh or with a witty comment, I want to simply not care about what others say...but it's not as simple as that it seems.
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Music Camp
4 min read
Hi guys, been a while. I'm using this journal thingy as like a blog so thar...
Recently I've participated in (at?) a music camp that's been held in Söderhamn, with violin as my major instrument. The kids that went to the camp was like 5 years younger than me and they were like small virtuosi the whole bunch of them, got me a little jealous but I decided that I wouldn't get good at violin with being envious so I've decided that I'm really going to be intense with my violin training from now on with a special program at my music school, really looking forward to it!
The week started with a concert with all the teachers which was very good. One of the teachers husband was Fredrik Ullén, look him up on wikipedia and you'll see! I'm both scared and euphoric because the teachers have arranged for me and my friend to get a little special lesson with him, it's a once in a lifetime experience!
At the camp we've played pieces by a lot of different composers like; Tartini, Telemann, Bach and a lot more. The cello group even played The final countdown which was a little cute. The kids that are being taught here really have a different feel from us 'natives', they're studying at Lilla Akademien which is a very good swedish music school so they're really good. I wish I could go there some day.
That reminds me, my friend just took a entrance test to Lilla Akademien and now she's looking for an apartment, just wanted to mention it 'cause I'm really happy for her.
Fredrik Ullén really is amazing, he have balanced his complex music career with being an well known neurologist. It's something me and my friends almost can't comprehend, I wish and hope I have the capacity to do the same... I want to be an biologist or an psychologist while being able to really study the violin. I hope I'm able.
Yesterday Fredrik Held a little concert in tribute to liszts' 200 birthday it was breathtaking. He's going to perform the same concert in France next week so it was really a treat. He played pices by liszt ofcourse and some by Messien, the best part part of the whole concert was when he played Evryale which was nine minutes long and truly a master piece inspired by medusa and her sisters, som greek composer I can't remember made it. I was scared at a part and I got goose bumps, it was terrifying. At the end of the piece I knew I was never going to see anything like it ever again in my whole life, it was magnificent.
I've had so much fun these past days that I can't even describe it! I've learned so much and I've made so many new friends! I messed up a lot when we played and I've feel kind of bad the whole week because I'm one of the older ones there but I'm at the same level as one eight year old kid there. I know It's bad to feel that but I hope I'm going to get enough motivation with this camp so that I can really concentrate on learning the violin so it's fine.
The local papers gave our camp and Fredrik Ullén fairly much attention and we had a few pages in the paper, it was pretty cool to be in the news.
I played so much violin that my body hurts, I hope it's going to be a music camp next year too...
Sorry if I formulated me kind of weird in the text but I'm really tired so bleh...
Bye
<3 || Elina
Recently I've participated in (at?) a music camp that's been held in Söderhamn, with violin as my major instrument. The kids that went to the camp was like 5 years younger than me and they were like small virtuosi the whole bunch of them, got me a little jealous but I decided that I wouldn't get good at violin with being envious so I've decided that I'm really going to be intense with my violin training from now on with a special program at my music school, really looking forward to it!
The week started with a concert with all the teachers which was very good. One of the teachers husband was Fredrik Ullén, look him up on wikipedia and you'll see! I'm both scared and euphoric because the teachers have arranged for me and my friend to get a little special lesson with him, it's a once in a lifetime experience!
At the camp we've played pieces by a lot of different composers like; Tartini, Telemann, Bach and a lot more. The cello group even played The final countdown which was a little cute. The kids that are being taught here really have a different feel from us 'natives', they're studying at Lilla Akademien which is a very good swedish music school so they're really good. I wish I could go there some day.
That reminds me, my friend just took a entrance test to Lilla Akademien and now she's looking for an apartment, just wanted to mention it 'cause I'm really happy for her.
Fredrik Ullén really is amazing, he have balanced his complex music career with being an well known neurologist. It's something me and my friends almost can't comprehend, I wish and hope I have the capacity to do the same... I want to be an biologist or an psychologist while being able to really study the violin. I hope I'm able.
Yesterday Fredrik Held a little concert in tribute to liszts' 200 birthday it was breathtaking. He's going to perform the same concert in France next week so it was really a treat. He played pices by liszt ofcourse and some by Messien, the best part part of the whole concert was when he played Evryale which was nine minutes long and truly a master piece inspired by medusa and her sisters, som greek composer I can't remember made it. I was scared at a part and I got goose bumps, it was terrifying. At the end of the piece I knew I was never going to see anything like it ever again in my whole life, it was magnificent.
I've had so much fun these past days that I can't even describe it! I've learned so much and I've made so many new friends! I messed up a lot when we played and I've feel kind of bad the whole week because I'm one of the older ones there but I'm at the same level as one eight year old kid there. I know It's bad to feel that but I hope I'm going to get enough motivation with this camp so that I can really concentrate on learning the violin so it's fine.
The local papers gave our camp and Fredrik Ullén fairly much attention and we had a few pages in the paper, it was pretty cool to be in the news.
I played so much violin that my body hurts, I hope it's going to be a music camp next year too...
Sorry if I formulated me kind of weird in the text but I'm really tired so bleh...
Bye
<3 || Elina
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Hi, it's been a while.
2 min read
HI, guys. It's been a looong time, but I really had to fix my life up before I could spare time for deviantart.
It's just that I weren't content with how things were, I had one friend (seriously) and all I did was sitting at the computer, I didn't feel confident in myself and I simply just thought I was ugly and a good for nothing. Then I realized that nothing were going to change if I just sat at the computer feeling sorry for myself and so I really tried to make an effort in changing my life as much as possible. It must have been the best thing I've ever done 'cause It really changed my life, and I changed a lot as a person. At least inside. I still have a role model way of weing that I haven't achieved yet but I don't know if it's good o think that we'll se...
The point I was trying to make anyway was that if you feel like something is wrong, don't just sit around, do something about it. With all your strength.
I just wanted to tell you guys, I don't really don't know why. Maybe so that I would remember what time in my life that everything changed. The time when I got more people to love and more things to experience, the time when I started to love myself with all my flaws and the people around me who also does so.
I'm starting to let my guard down. When you have to suppress the bad things of yourself after a lifetime of letting it all out on persons around you, you can slip sometimes and go back to old habits.
To future self- remember the things you did, clearly and the friends you made! Remember the happiness after realizing the change!
Thank you Paula, Hanna. Thank you Norunn. I love you, and thank you for your all the help you gave me even though you didn't know.
Thank you everyone who kept visiting even though I never submitted anything new.
Sorry for this ridiculously emotional journal entry...wow, I guess this almost sounded like an Oscar speech or sumtin'. Damn, well. Dun wanna erase it now! Love y'all. (: || Elina
It's just that I weren't content with how things were, I had one friend (seriously) and all I did was sitting at the computer, I didn't feel confident in myself and I simply just thought I was ugly and a good for nothing. Then I realized that nothing were going to change if I just sat at the computer feeling sorry for myself and so I really tried to make an effort in changing my life as much as possible. It must have been the best thing I've ever done 'cause It really changed my life, and I changed a lot as a person. At least inside. I still have a role model way of weing that I haven't achieved yet but I don't know if it's good o think that we'll se...
The point I was trying to make anyway was that if you feel like something is wrong, don't just sit around, do something about it. With all your strength.
I just wanted to tell you guys, I don't really don't know why. Maybe so that I would remember what time in my life that everything changed. The time when I got more people to love and more things to experience, the time when I started to love myself with all my flaws and the people around me who also does so.
I'm starting to let my guard down. When you have to suppress the bad things of yourself after a lifetime of letting it all out on persons around you, you can slip sometimes and go back to old habits.
To future self- remember the things you did, clearly and the friends you made! Remember the happiness after realizing the change!
Thank you Paula, Hanna. Thank you Norunn. I love you, and thank you for your all the help you gave me even though you didn't know.
Thank you everyone who kept visiting even though I never submitted anything new.
Sorry for this ridiculously emotional journal entry...wow, I guess this almost sounded like an Oscar speech or sumtin'. Damn, well. Dun wanna erase it now! Love y'all. (: || Elina
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My tableet! TT^TT
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Hai everybody...my tablet is officially broken.
I knew I should've bought an more expensive model! How do you fix this? The pressure thing doesn't work! Jesus...
I really doesn't come to deviantart often nowadays,
And my visitors keep decreasing but well, it's my own fault...
And now when my Tablet is broken and my cameras dirty and almost broken and I don't have a scanner, I can't submit anything! Almost.
Well my priority now is my real life so toodles on you and see ya!
~
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Twelfth night or whatnot.
1 min read
I just came home from my ski trip in Funäsdalen. We have a cabinet there and so we go, every year.
I don't know why but I always have such an hard time writing journals. I sat for five minutes to think of an headline...and ten for an content and well, it didn't turn out well. >_>
I always think oh now I'm going to make an real masterpiece but when I sit down I can feel it seep away slowly. So sorry for that and just wait until I find my muse.
I don't have many watchers or views per day but the ones I have make me really happy. I'm gonna write something more later but I just wanted to tell you I'm home. Bye~!
P.S. I know I only write about my lack of inspiration so thar! (: D.S
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